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Spiritual bums

Lately I've been realizing that I am a lazy bum! Yes, I am willing to admit to it. Most people don't like to be called "lazy bums," they get all defensive and make up your breath hun, you're a lazy bum!
Now please understand, I'm not talking about being physically lazy..couch potato' no...i mean spiritual lazy bums! Quite frankly, I am a busy body! Honestly, I am always doing shopping, out with friends, family nights, reading, playing my guitar, doing chores, rollerblading...I'm a busy body. So physically, I wouldn't call myself a couch potato, however i would call myself a spritual couch potato, a spiritual bum! Lately I've been feeling like I'm under some sort of attack, I feel like something is in my way...I see what I want to acomplish, what kind of person I want to be, what I want to see myself doing, how I want myself to act, what I want myself to know...but something is in my way, blocking my visi…

All I know is that He knows best!

I might not know a lot, but what I do know is that He knows best! In the last few weeks He has shown me that He will answer the desires and dreams of His children's hearts but it will be in His time and for His glory.
Here's my theory-When you walk with Him and listen to Him daily, He begins to plant certain desires in our hearts. It could be that He's calling you to witness to a certain person, He might be calling you to go feed the homeless, or serve in some ministry at your church or go overseas and plant churches. Whatever the desires might be, if you're walking with Him you'll know that they are from Him. Now here's the tricky part.... sometimes we confuse the given desires with "I must fulfill this desire right now." I call this "a clueless traveler." Why "clueless" you might ask. Well just because God plants the desires in you, it doesn't mean you have it all to fulfill it right now. It takes a while. You want to feed t…

Up and thennn i go downnn

Well, as we all know life never goes the way we plan it. The key is to NOT have a plan at all...maybe have goals and dreams, but don't plan things, because in the end it most likely will not go the way you want it to go. I'm not talking about bumps in the road...complications and all. But complete change of plans. Its gets crazy!

Lets see how can i explain my title of this post...hmm. A month or so ago i was on fire, i was ready to go out there and do whatever it is that i thought i was going to do. I was also on fire for the Lord, and life was just great! that was the "up" in my i go down...
I am not on fire for the Lord, and i don't understand why..this part hurts the most. Its not like i've got anything to complain about right? I mean i've got a great family, I've got an amazing friend i can count on, I've got the freedom to dive into the Word of God and talk freely about Him...what is there that i should even complain about? Thats w…

The bumps in the road just make the ride more fun!

Hey!!  "Many are the plans in the mind of a man,
but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand."-Proverbs 19:21 We can plan and plan, but only if our plans are within God's Will do they succeed! 
Flexibility is key! How you respond to changes in life and the little bumps in the road, tells a lot about your character. It tells a lot about what you put your faith and trust in. Yes we get upset and frustrated that something doesn't go our way, and it takes a lot of energy to remind ourselves "God is in control, His ways are perfect." For some reason, we want to do things our way and our way only...and when something is not right..oh boy you better watch out! Wouldn't it be easier to grab God's hand and say to Him "Will you walk down that road with me Father?" i doubt He'll say no. God is here, always. 
Whenever I went to Mexico with my youth group, my pastor called the trip "Flexico," you have to be flexible, you can't be s…

Beautiful Stranger

Hey Guys!
"God, I hear You calling out to me
In the voices of the least of these
Calling me to reach beyond my world
To the beautiful stranger" -Rebecca St James

A beautiful stranger, Brenda taught me a very good lesson. 

This weekend CBCHB took the Jr Highers to LA to serve the homeless, play Bingo with the elderly and serve at Midnight Mission(rehabilitation center for men.) What a great trip! It was a blessing to watch them grow and watch them serve, and most importantly watch their eyes and hearts open to His truth. The Lord did so much in their hearts and made them see that there are so many people with out Christ. I absolutely love serving in LA, God has taught me so much as well. was an early, cold and rainy day, the ground was freezing and there were people everywhere. My group and I were searching for someone to eat breakfast with and talk to. No luck. As we were crossing the street i saw, t-shirt, pants and a blanket. Her feet must have been numb.…

Oh Lord distract me from my distractions!

Hey Guys!
All I have to say is that I am so easily distracted by everything. I am also so thankful for my parents because of their love for me and their guidance. My dad sat me down and showed me my weaknesses, and it opened my eyes. Honestly. Its funny how God works though; I've been praying for so long for God to reveal my heart to me and for Him to show me what distracts me. He used my dad to show me just that. So my focus this week is to illuminate anything that takes  so much of my time in life. I have deactivated my Facebook account; and it feels so good not to be tied down with it. I just want to give all my attention to God and not be distracted. So Oh Lord, distract me from my distractions! =) He is so loving and so faithful, becasue He is revealing Himself to me, showing to me how glorious He is, and how beautiful He is, making me realize that i don't need anything else besides Him!
"The more i see of the world, the more I am dissatisfied with it;"-Elizabet…

God is always Good!

Hello there,
I have not heard anything new about my trip to Indonesia yet, but I know this is God way to prepare my heart for His work. Since my last post, God has been proving that He is good, He is good all the time! Not just sometimes. He answers prayers, yes it might not be the way we want them to be answered, but God knows whats best for us right? That's what i keep telling myself! =) I don't know how many of you know me well, but i am a very impatient person. I just really want to be in Indonesia right now, in the orphanage..serving. But God keeps telling me "wait on Me Natalia, and keep My way.."-Ps37:34. While i wait for a next open door, i need to continuously recognize that God is good all the time, and i need to keep  in His way, i keep hearing the Lord say "Follow me Natalia." Also the people all around me that are excited for me to go, have been so encouraging! Thank you guys!
As I was thinking about serving in an orphanage, and as i was talkin…

God is faithful

Hello everyone!
Life is crazy and full of adventures! For the past 6-9 months I have been praying hard for God to show me what it is that I am supposed to do in life. My dad one day said "what about being a missionary?" Heck yeah, that is exactly what God wants me to do! As many of you know I grew up in an orphanage in Russia, and ever since I became a christian, my heart was always with the orphans. I know what it feels like to be in an orphanage. See there are a few things my caregivers did not do..they didn't show love and care. They were there to do their job, check if we did our homework, made sure we brushed our teeth, and made sure we stayed out of trouble. Those things are great and I am forever grateful that they took the time to do that, however, there were no hugs, no care, no love, no encouragement. None of that. God has shown me that the little children should be cared for, should be loved! So that's where this adventure begins, I've been praying and…