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I'm in love

I went to see "Soul Surfer" today with some of my favorite people; the movie was amazing and super inspirational. GO SEE IT! One of the scenes it showed Thailand; when it was hit with the tsunami...Bethany was visiting them with her youth group. While watching the movie I felt God all around me, and I was so encouraged. But when I saw that scene, the people, the kids who lost their parents in the destruction- now they are orphans-something awesome happened within me. It hit me hard- orphans-broke my heart once again, and I was reminded of my purpose in life. I felt such reassurance that this is what God wants from me in the future..always to be involved with kids of all ages for the rest of my life.
That is my calling, and nothing is going to get in the way of that. God is preparing my heart for Haiti in major ways and I can't wait to experience it all. There's someone I look up to-Ari- a girl who heard God's voice, and with determination and commitment followed Him. From young age she knew what she wanted to do for the rest of her life-now she serves in Haiti where I will be going with my team. And I'm so looking forward to learning from her, to be discipled by her; we share the same dream, God's given her dream wings; I can't wait to fly too! =) 

Some people ask me if I am dating or not...or if I even have an interest in anybody...here's my answer: I have found my true love, the kind who satisfies-Christ of course, but next to that-orphans-kids/teens that don't know Christ. Doing His work for His glory and for my good. That is my interest. When I find someone who I love just as much if not more as I love the kiddos, I'll know he'll be the right one.
Nothing really matters in life as much as living your life for the Lord. Joyfully with no pressure to strive for perfection, because my True Love takes me as I am, and even when I serve the orphans- it is ultimately all for Him. The little things in life, like dating, wealth, the little drama's in our lives-seem to fade in the background for me when I look at the big picture of my life. God's more important..that's all there's to it.

But yes I am in love, in love with what I am doing, in love with my calling, in love with God.
Something Bethany Hamilton said that struck me:
"Courage, sacrifice, determination, commitment, toughness, heart, talent, guts. That's what little girls are made of; the heck with sugar and spice." AMEN!
=)
Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.” — Ralph Waldo Emerson

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  1. That is So amazing that God has really been touching your heart lately! It sure is amazing how God can work through others! So happy for you and praying for you!!

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  2. Thank you Grace!! =) means alot to me! <3

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