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the great pursuit

Summer....never was a huge fan. All the while I love the fun, the sun, the tanning, the freedom from homework and I love not thinking about deadlines and tests. However, the lack of schedule truly annoys me. A few months before summer begins I dread it. In the summer is where I lose touch with God, it's where I feel distant...knowing full well that I am the one moving away, not Him. It's in the summer where I let go of Him...yet He never lets go of me.
Reasons for this? You tell me. I don't get it really. Laziness? yes, I believe that plays a major role. so this summer went a little differently. I went to Haiti, which was a life changing trip...there's not a day that goes by that I don't think about it, don't pray about. Then after I got back I had troubles adjusting...deep down inside I might still have troubles...but nothing that the Lord can't take care of. I miss that place...I miss everyone there. But being back was the most difficult thing I have eve…

I will wait for you

I heard this poem by Janette and it is totally amazing! she put everything I think and want in words. CHECK IT!
"So it seemed, that it was cool, fo cool, for everyone to be in a relationship but me..
So I took matters into my own hands… and ended up with him
Him who displayed the characteristics of a CHEATER, a LIAR, an ABUSER, & a THEIF
So.. why was I surprised when he broke into my heart?
I called 911, but I was cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting,
Cause it was ME who let him in…
Claiming we were “just friends”..
It was already decided for me by the first date, that even if he wasn’t!
I was gonna make him ‘The One’..
You know… I was tired of being alone,
And I simply made up in my mind, that it was about that time so I decided to drag him along for the ride,
Cause I was always the bridesmaid & never the bride..
A virgin in the physical, but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat!
Who was tired of the wait!
So I was gonna make him ‘The One’.
He had a… for…


Note to self: always surround yourself with positivity.

Being home from Haiti for almost a month is a little challenging. I at times find myself missing it so much that i can't even be by myself, because my thoughts take over and then it's down hill from there. But what keeps me going on is the thought that God will bring me to that place once again. I have hope in that. Also what keeps me going, is remember God's goodness and His promises. He isn't done with me yet, and there are greater thing have yet to come (yes i am quoting Chris Tomlin.)
Surrounding myself with positivity, makes me see all the things i should be grateful for, all the blessings. Even the smallest miracles that we are blind to, we really should be more observant. When I am in my sad mode I don't notice these things, i tend to slip into "my world" where it's all about me, and how much I miss Haiti, how much I need to feel needed by the children. But its not about me is it? nope.