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I just wonder that's all.

Sometimes I Its a constant rollercoaster ride, somedays nothing makes sense...somedays I wake up full of joy and I feel like nothing can bring me down....but in the back of my mind I wonder..."is this too good to be true?" I feel as if some one out there is sitting outside my happiness door and as soon as I get happy and opens and reminds me of the things I don't what to think about. For instance....whoever is reading this, you probably don't know I have two half sisters. I miss them...I just got off the phone with my grandpa from Russia, he told me of a memory he has of me and one of my sisters....he remembers me and her playing together, and talking to each other and laughing together. I wish I could go back in time and see that. I don't remember it at all. She is only 2 years younger than me...maybe she knows she was adopted...maybe not. but I wonder. My other sister I remeber as if I held her just yesterday...I fed her, changed her …


something I read tonight and it was so awesome!

"One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprintsin the sand; on e belonging to him and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only onfe set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life. This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once i decided to followe you, you'd walkl with me all the way. but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me." The Lord replied. "My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you…