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if you think you stand...you just might be sinking,

"If you think you are standing strong, be careful not to fall"-1Corinthians 10:12 and "But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me."-2Corinthians 12:9----> these verses are on my heart tonight.

Life can fool us sometimes. We go through life, our daily routines-and we think that we've got it all together. Once you start thinking to yourself "yep, I'm in a good place right now" BAM, something happens and all of a sudden you are lost.

All I can say is the spiritual ups and downs are designed for me to depend on God for help. Once I think Im stong enough to handle life, God always shows me my weakness to remind me that I can't do life on my own.

Ever since I began working it seemed like I got it all figured out...my schedule seemed good. I was reading the Word everyday, I did everything around the hosue, I had time for homework-i thought, "I can do this."

The Lord has been testing my faith, obedience, strength, my love for Him; He's also been testing my heart, to see what is taking the most importance.
All I can say is when you ask God to reveal you your heart- BE CAREFUL! I didnt like seeing the results of my wretched heart. No matter how much you read your bible, it does not mean you're immune to weakness, selfishess, disobedience, doubt, etc.. Lately, God has been showing me in many areas of my life how weak I am.

Im not at a place where I am rejoicing about my weakness yet, but I want to be there. Spiritual adventures are not so fun-however my weakness is pushing me to explore God as my strength. I become strong when I depend on God.

I encourage you, whoever is reading this...to ask the Lord to reveal your heart to you. Write it all out, in specifics. What is ruling your heart? dig deep, you'll be surprised what you might find...Be careful if you think you stand...you just might be sinking. -"slow fade" by casting crowns.

Find strength in Him today and always.

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