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"Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back everything is different..."-CS Lewis
Well well, 2011 is coming to an end. Did you follow through all the new years resolutions you made in the beginning of the year? if you ask me, I'd tell you HECK NO! i actually don't even think i made them, because my goals change, people change and grow up...so the resolutions change every month!

I haven't written a blog in a while now, so much has happened so many lessons were learned. I think this year i've grown the most spiritually then any other year. I went to Haiti, which was definitely a HIGHLIGHT of my year. My heart is still there, Im physically here, doing what God is telling me to do, but my heart is in Haiti for sure. I've learned to have hope in the Lord like never before, I've learned not to depend on people, because they will for sure dissapoint you, fail you, hurt you, and surprise you. I also learned to never hold grudges, to just move on with life. when all that happens to you, you can't dwell on it, never. Accept the suprises in life, accept peoples failures-just from that point on love them more then you have ever before, but don't trust them and depend on them.
I've learned that my only security is in God, He's consistant with His feelings towards me, its never a guessing game with Him-Psalm 139 <3
God's been working on my patience, He's been teaching me how to want the things that are good for me. He's been convicting me, encouraging me, and most of all every day He has been saving me from myself.

So now, that we're 2 days away from saying goodbye to 2011, look inside your heart, what has changed? what is different about yourself? also look at the people that surround you...love them even more next year!


"The measure of success is not whether you have a tough problem to deal with, but wether it is the same problem you had last year"-John Foster Dulles

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