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a belated Happy New Year

Happy New Year everyone! Haha of course a little late but hey better late than never right?

What do you want this year to be about?- good question.
Plans. hmm. never really liked the idea of plans. I mean who am I to plan out my life when the God of the universe, the Creator of all that I am, already has every moment of my life planned out. why should I "plan"? no. goals? yes, I will make them, I don't need to plan in order to achieve them. I simply need to look for an opprotunity, grab on to it, and move along. My goal is to go to Haiti in June, I am praying very very hard for God to open doors, but I can never plan it because God might have a different idea of how I get there or if I even get there at all. I can have that as my goal, and leave the planning up to God. Lately He has been showing me that that's the best way to do it.

Even with relationships. I am 20 years old, and the last "real" relationship I had was 4 years ago or so. Ever since, I haven't met anyone who I would like to get to know more than a friend. I mean my heart is saying "come on!!!" but my mind is saying "God knows best, His timing is perfect and there is no rush!" I like listening to my mind better! haha But for reals, why is it that our generation/society pressures young women to be involved with someone? Just today I went to a party and the top 3 questions were "what school are you going to?" "what is your major?"and "do you have a boyfriend?" Really? I just don't get it. Girls my age, have so much growing up to do. At twenty years old, we are still trying to figure out life, would having a "boyfriend" ease it up? NO! I mean some girls can definitely do it no problem, and good for them! But for those of us who don't have them, we shouldn't feel the need to. They say its in Jr High you're trying to figure out who you are and what you believe in, and in High School you are growing in your faith. no! for me, in jr high i goofed off, high school- i screwd around and college is when i began trully growing up. Right now, if i were to date, I would be so stressed! Church, school, work, family, friends and then a boyfriend! Heck no! I guess im just tired of being pressured to have a boyfriend. half of it is my own heart pressuring and half of it is the world. Im just sick of it...only makes me want to go more against it.

This year my goal is to be SO intune with God that the rest of the world would just shut down, I want to be SO tangled in His will for my life. I want to have His desires in my heart, so therefore in whatever I do it would glorify Him! I don't know what to get busy planning my next move, I want to live my next move! I want Him to be the center of all of my decisions, and I want His will done in my life. I want to be a woman on a mission to do one thing and one thing only-it is to bring glory to my Savior!

I want to reevaluate the relationships around me. What are they doing for my walk with God? or what am I doing for them? are we just two souls having a "good time?" no. what a waste of time that is. I want all of my relationships to have a meaning, a purpose. if you're just wasting my time, you better believe it we're done. Im done just going about life, and just existing. Living apart from this world while in it is what i want to do. I want to be different. If it is to go to Haiti and care for the kids, let it be. if it is something else, then oh God just show me. Single? yes, Im willing to be, as long as You're with me! <----that just rhymed! was not planned! lol

So what will you be doing this year?

Happy New Year everyone! <3

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