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Proverbs 4:23

People often say "there are two kinds of people in this world________________" Lately I've been realizing "there are two kinds of people in this world, ones who have been hurt in the past and then turn out to be hurting others in the same form and ones who have been hurt in the past and are determined to build walls around themselves to never allow that pain in." I choose walls.

Lately I've been learning more and more that it is so important to "above all else, guard your heart(thoughts, will, and affections), for it is the wellspring of life.."-Proverbs 4:23. In the past I've always interpreted that as to guarding our hearts in romantic relationships, when in reality our hearts are intended to be whole, for God makes it whole. But when we do not guard it, we let other things in besides God, then it becomes less stable. I refuse to be in an unstable place.

However, with guarding your hearts you have to know that sometimes you can take things too far. You have to know the difference between protecting yourself and putting on the armor of God rather than distancing yourself from the people that cause you pain so much that you begin to resent them. I choose to protect, but not resent.

For those of you hurting out there, guard yourselves. Make sure you don't become so hard that you don't feel a thing at all, but be SO stable in the Lord, be SO in love with the Lord that nothing in this world or no one would be able to make you resent someone or put you in the place of instability.

Guard yourselves.


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