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While Im waiting....

To be quite honest, ever since I got back I've been living here half hearted. My heart has been broken into so many pieces and Haiti has them all. My first week back has been the toughest. I know that God is teaching me and molding me into the person He wants me to be. He is also shaping my future.

This week the memories have been randomly flashing throug my mind like a movie, it's non-stop. I dont like to sit alone in my room because all I see are the faces of the kids, all I hear are the voices of the creole language and the loud praises to my God. I cry because my heart aches to be there with them, and then I smile because I was priviliged to experience it. I've been praying and leaning on God so much, I cling to His truths and His promises and I find comfort in Him alone. He gets me through the day!

I know God has wonderful plans for me. As I am preparing for Uganda and am trying to focus on that, I've been getting more and more excited. I've been privilaged to love on the kids of Haiti and now I will get to love on the kids of Uganda. Different cultures-same needs, everyone need LOVE. So I am ready to give it all, I've been loved much and I want to share that with the little kids. Can't wait!!! As I am trying to raise money, God always reminds me of how faithful He is, He always shows me a way that I should go in. Oh how I trust Him!

Also today I filled out my intership application for next summer. My hope is to return back to Haiti and be a nanny at the girls home. Prayer would be much appreciated.

WHILE I'M WAITING-I want to do my best to be present here mentally. I love my family, I love my church, and I love my friends-it breaks my heart even more knowing that I am not giving my all to them. I want to serve God to the best of my ability, realizing I can't do it on my own, I need HIM!

I encourage whoever is reading this, while you wait for the Lord, serve Him fully.

The Lord is good to those who wait for Him, to the soul who seeks Him. It is GOOD that one should HOPE and WAIT quietly for the salvation of the Lord.-Lamentations 3:25-26.


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