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Floating through life...

wow two posts in one day...never happened before.

But tonight I sit in my room, and probably not to your surprise-next to my giant bear. =)

The fear of the unknown creeps in. I'm literally just floating through life. I quit my OTA program, and right now all I'm doing is just working and taking a math a class. What does the future hold? See, people usually have some sort of a blue print of their life, some kind of an idea of how things are going to go. Me? no clue. Since my heart is so divided between Uganda and Haiti-I am completely unaware of where I'll go next. Since getting back from Haiti-so many organizations popped out of no where, so many opportunities for me to choose from. I've made friends over facebook who are out there serving Christ by loving on the kids and everyone's doors are open for visitors. So I'm seeing a lot of both Africa and Haiti. What am I to do with my life? Right now, I feel like everything has been put on hold. The more I rely on God the more doors I see...

I read a blog post today where a pastor was asking God what He wanted of him. The answer was simply to love God where you're at. Right now, I need to be so in love with Him. I intend to be.

But whenever someone asks what I'm majoring in, or when am I going back to see my babies-which then I have to follow up with "which babies, Ugandan or Haitian?" -never an easy clear answer. So whenever these come up, I stand there with no answer and a face of a dreamer.  

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything give thanks to the Lord..."-Philippians 4:6

I don't know what I'm doing, or where I'm going, or if I'm even on the right track....but I'm called to love Him right here...right now. and I will.


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