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I didn't intend on getting attached...

Yesterday I get in my car and drive away from the place I fell in love job. Weird right? People don't usually love their jobs, I did...with all my heart.

As I got in the car I turned on 95.9-The fish radio...and this is what I hear "Be strong in the Lord and never give up hope. You're gonna do great things, I already know. God's got His hands on you, so don't live life in fear..." I looked up and said "This is from you God." 

I don't know where I'm going or what exactly I am going to do. Financially it will be difficult, but "be strong in the Lord and never give up hope.." rings in my ears.

My job consisted of taking care of children all day every day. Feeding, diapers, playing, sleeping-the normal stuff. For a year and a half, that's all I did every single day. Not to mention, the people I grew to love...that's tough. I mean it's not like I will never see them again, it's just not the same. I used to see my co-workers every single day, we played "parents" if you there's a major bond right there. So not seeing the same faces everyday is going to be hard.

Waking up this morning was odd, the feeling of not having to get ready is odd. Bittersweet.
I never intended on getting attached, I never intended to love it there so much. I mean, how many of you can say "My job made my day?" Not many, but I definitely can.

I know that God has plans for me. There is a reason why I left my job. I'm clueless, but He knows it all. I"m going to take this time off, soak in the truths, let God work on my heart, and just fall in love with Him!

One door closes another one opens. I truly believe that.
So I'm sad, but ready.



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