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Doubtless heart

Ever wonder why it seems like our prayers are just bouncing off the walls? As if they are unheard? Uncared for? I don't know about you, but I feel like that at times...

This morning I stayed home from church but I spent time in the word and listening to Francis Chan, and boy am I glad I did that. I've realized something....

I don't pray with complete faith, I pray with doubt...I may not sound like it, but my heart doubts. I pray in a way that tests God "will see if You come through God." Or I pray with "I'm going out on a limb here, don't think You'll accomplish this, but here goes nothing." In my opinion God doesn't listen to those prayers, and then I sit here and wonder "What the heck? I'm praying and praying and nothing happens." Well, hello- I'm praying with a doubtful heart, with an unfaithful heart. No wonder.

"'Have faith in God,' Jesus answered. 'I tell you the truth, if anyone says to this mountain, "Go, throw yourself into the sea," and does not doubt in his heart but believes that what he says will happen, it will be done for him. Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours. And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins'" (Mark 11:22-25)

Why are we afraid to pray boldly? Why are we a people of such little faith in a God who created the universe and every little cell in our bodies? Why are we a people of doubtful hearts? When Peter step out of the boat, He walked, but then his heart began to doubt and he began to drown-Do we think that it's all too good to be true? We see the evidence of our awesome Go, we admire it for a little while and then we begin to lose faith. Why? 
 "Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need."-Hebrews 4:16 

We serve a good God. I don't want to doubt a God who made His Son who knew NO SIN, to become sin for my sake. At the cross, Christ took on my shame, my sin-and I took on His righteousness and perfect faith. That's how God sees me, it's time to start living up to that. (God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.-2Corinthians 5:21)

We know God is a perfect God, He cares, He listens, He does-So the next time we pray and we wonder why it feels like He isn't listening, check your heart. Are we praying with a heart that is "certain of what we do not see?"(Hebrews 4:16)


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