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A Humbling Reminder

Question. Have you ever had this overwhelming reminder of how messed up you are? A reminder of all of your shortcomings?

It's a humbling feeling isn't? I am absolutely incompetent of living this life without God, and when I try to take on the world on my own, that's when I begin failing and that's when I am reminded I am absolutely nothing.

It is a hard concept to grasp but I giving myself away. "He must become increase and I must decrease." - John 3:30. No, this does not mean I need to walk around with a low self esteem, with a constant weight of my failures on my shoulders. After all, "there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.."- Romans 8:1
John 15:5 tells us "I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from Me you can do nothing." Why do you think it says that? "Apart from Me you can do nothing"- that's because God didn't plan for us to live this life in this broken world on our own. He sees how broken this world is and He knows we can't handle it on our own. Not only is this verse comforting in a way that Christ is in us, but also that He desires to relieve our burdens, our shortcomings. 

There are numerous verses in the bible talking about how we should give our burdens to Him (Matthew 11:28-30), how we should cast all our cares upon Him because He cares for us (1Peter5:7), so if He cares why do we attempt to do it all on our own.  

So today I was reminded of my constant failures, and this world attacks my thoughts which bring insecurity, but I've learned that those are all lies and I am His. I am so tempted to just throw my hands up in the air and say "forget it, i give up." But that's an easy way out, and my daddy taught me to be above that. 

If ever, if at all, whoever is taking the time to read this, feels insecure, not enough, as if everything you do is wrong-pray. Thank Him for that, all God is trying to say is "My child, you've been trying, striving, reaching, pushing- all on your own. It's too much for you, lean on Me, let me help, You are enough for Me." 

"I do not condemn you, either. Go. From now on sin no more."- John 8:11

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