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This is the day where everyone starts their New Year resolutions, where every one says "the past is the past," "new page to your novel begins now," and many more cliche sayings.
Reality check. The past doesn't disappear the minute you wake up on January first, and "new page to your novel" is just a page of the same old book, probably even the same chapter. Nothing changes over night. I love the optimism though.

Why say such things when we all clearly know that none of them are true? Stop saying "closing a chapter" but say "I lived 2014, and I will continue living 2015 and so on." Mistakes, heartache, set backs, tears, joys, fear,'s a continuous soundtrack to life that keeps replaying every single year whether you like it or not. So just stop closing chapters, but improve your book all together.

Resolutions. Just stop there. Have goals yes, but don't just have them at the end of a year, have them every day. Don't have resolutions the day before a new year begins, don't write them, don't think them. In my opinion, that is just setting yourself up for failure. January third will roll around and you'll see yourself snapping back to your old ways and with that comes disappointment. Be goal minded daily. 

My new years eve consisted of being surrounded by the people I love, by whom I've been surrounded with all year long, whom I treasure more than fine gold. No resolutions needed. I was just there with them. Being. Existing. Living life with them. That's how it should be. And guess what? My new year day consisted of the same exact thing, and I couldn't be happier.
2015. Nothing new. The old is still here. The problems and the struggles of 2014 are still present in our hearts and lives. Nothing changes. Continue living. Continue experiencing life, be present in each moment, love each person, always know when things need to be let go of, and do that on the DAILY.

Love the optimism though...


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