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What if you just let it be

A friend of mine once said "we are always stuck with the what if's." She elaborated more on it resonated with me. 

She explained that there are three kinds of 'what if's' in life, one is a "what if" of the past. What if we've done something different along our paths, what if we did this, and we did that. What would our lives look like now? Then there's a "what if" of the present; what if the things I chose to do now have bad consequences, or what if the people I choose to be around only deteriorate me from my own growth? The final "what if" is future, what if certain things don't pan out how you think they will, what if they go terribly wrong, what if we compromise so much in life, that it will literally be a lesson we learn the rest of our lives. 

There's no escape. 'What if's' are going to haunt you all the time. What we choose to do with them, will change the course of our lives, our growth, our relationships, and our hearts. 

My friend and I concluded with the lesson of not thinking 'what if,' rather be thankful for the past. The things that happened to us in the past were meant to happen for the reason of us learning lessons, not about life necessarily; rather our own selves. We learn how certain things affect us, how we respond, and what we have to do to not have history repeat itself. In the present time, we need not be asking ourselves 'what if's'. Be the original you, not considering how others might react to your authenticity. The events of present life-just live each day to the fullest of your own ability, do the best you can to push through whatever battles you are fighting, whatever demons you might be hiding-just let them out and allow people to embrace you as you are. Forsake the thoughts of the future 'what if's,' the store fear in your heart, and open the door for skepticism. Take risks. Go out of our comfort zone, and trust your decisions without second guessing yourself, because the outcome might be so beautiful and so wonderful, far beyond what you would have imagined. 

A huge part of me is an open book, and lately I've been finally opening myself up for learning lessons. Learning myself again, before I let someone else think they've discovered all my secrets. I'm learning to embrace my battles, love my flaws and shortcomings. Finally, the most important lesson of all, I'm finding out how to love myself, before I let anyone even close to loving me. The 'what if's' no longer need to be a part of my daily thoughts, because I've conquered and accepted life as it was, is, and will be. 

What if you just let it be. 

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