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what will you do this year? who will you become? which version of you will you chose to show others? 

each year, we proclaim a new self, we make resolutions, we commit to being better, and honestly guys, it never lasts long. its rather silly. 

of course I'm excited for the new year, however what stopped us from being the better us last year, a day ago? why do we as a people do that to ourselves, it's almost as if we give ourselves a free ticket to screw up and be whoever we want to be and act however we want to act, and soon as its a different four digit date, we think all that is forgotten and we start over. No. 

the heartaches of last year still haunt us. The mistakes we made last year we are still paying consequences for. The joy we experienced in the year of 2015 we still feel the outcome of it now. 

so with this new year, take all the experiences, take all the pain, take all heartbreaks and sad songs, and claim them as part of you, and learn. Learn to be stronger, don't just forget it all, throw it all away and say I'm starting new. No you are not starting new, you are continuing to evolve. What happened last year was your doing, your decisions, your mistakes, we don't have the right to treat those experiences so flippantly. 

with all that being said, you have a choice regardless. I, for instance, know exactly how I will continue to grow, I know exactly what steps I need to take to achieve my goals, my desires, and my passions. 

Make a list. draw a heart, and write anything and everything that fills it. the bad and the good. 

someone wise once asked me "what's in your heart?" meaning, who do you treasure, who are you as a personal. write it all down, with one thousand percent honestly. Let me tell you, its brutal. 

next, accept with good grace who you've been, breath it out, hold on to it, and step out in amazing faith towards growth. tell yourself that you will improve, tell yourself you will no longer put yourself certain positions that allow for compromise, or for shifting your ground. stay firm. 

make a list of all the things you want to do and actually fulfill it. advice though-make a realistic one so you don't set yourself up for failure. If you want to travel more, the do so, go. If you want to see your family more, by all means, actually I implore you, do so. Please please please, try something new. challenge yourself, step out of your comfort zone and do something extraordinary. 

happy new year guys, not to new beginnings, but to evolving into amazing versions of ourselves. Always hold on to life experiences, but please learn. See your heart as what it is and not what you want it to be, and make little alterations. 

to new year, old us, and growth. 

Love always, 
Another cliche blogger. 

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