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May God break my heart so completely that the whole world falls in

I read a quote once, it stated "If you must leave, leave people better than you found them" or something along those lines. 

Through out life, we meet people, we let them into our lives, we reveal ourselves, we let them write our story. We make an impact one way or another. If we're lucky, and I mean really lucky, we get to keep those people in our lives, but sometimes that's not the case. 

Sometimes people come into our lives for the sole purpose of teaching us a lesson, or open our closed shut eyes to a new perspective, and when the job is done, it's time to go. 

I struggle with that at times. Why is it that we get to be a part of someone else's life for what it seems a split second, make an imprint and then it seems inevitable that we leave? Do we simply not allow ourselves to attach and in the duration of the friendship or whatever it may be we still show the love, mercy and compassion? Do we protect ourselves and guard our hearts while we teach others their self worth and make them see their potential? 

I've realized something in the past few weeks. What is my purpose? It has everything to do with fulfilling His calling. If I the only thing I do earth is make people better, then so be it, even at my expense. If I'm not meant to stay with the same group of people through life, so be it. If I was brought up with the ability to detach myself so easy solely because God will be moving from place to place, from meeting hearts of different faces, than so be it. 

What I also have learned, is that sometimes we overstay our welcome in peoples lives, we tend to force our presence in thinking we're doing a good deed, we need to learn when our time is up. I think God intended for people to travel through other people's lives so we can change and allow ourselves to evolve. 

I for one, know in my heart that I'm not meant to be in one place for long. God has giving me a passion for people, to love them, as to hurt with them, to be a part of their journey even if its for a short while. 

This post is rather short, but in order for me to accomplish what I need to on this earth I must write. 

So. If we must leave, make sure we leave people in a better place than when we found them, show them their worth. 

In the end, if I'm meant to stay broken over people, let it be so God holds together those who need to be complete, who need to fulfill their purpose in life. Mother Teresa said it beautifully, "May God break my heart so completely that the whole world falls in." No matter where you're at, or who you're with in this lifetime, or for a short time, let yourself be broken so that they may be whole. Make them better. 

With all my love for all of you, 


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